"So far away" by AB~

I sit in the shadows,
Alone in despair,
I feel you don't listen,
I feel you don't care,

I've broken inside me,
A bell with no chime,
A train with no whistle,
A clock with no time,

Memories fading,
But love still remains,
Turning in silence,
Too deep stabbing pains,

Neighbors in life,
Yet so far away,
I wake for my night,
As you start your day,

Lonely nights drifting,
Across the wide sea,
Do your thoughts ever,
Drift towards me?

" Loves Doldrums"

They say in time I'll forget you,
The throbbing grow less everyday,
the tears, I cry, will dry up,
and in time, the love, fade away.

I want to spend my life rejoicing,
to let go, and let my heart free,
but I'm stuck in these terrible doldrums,
and I'm drowning, in mystery,

For each day I wake, up I miss you,
and each night my eyes bleed with pain,
how many years, will love linger?
and my heart flooded with rain?

you say life isn't a movie,
happy endings, we are not to see,
but what if my life, ends with regret,
of the love, that could never be?

I want to go back to the day we met,
To save myself from this pain,
To never hear music, couldn't feel worse,
Then this no ending song of refrain,

For so many years, I have waited,
will I wait twice that, to see,
if you'll marry another?
or bring your love back to me?